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Thursday, March 03, 2005

dear...

jiajia.
wanna tell you i'm sorry for not being sensitive enough.
i'm sorry for running around and listening to everyone problems and not bothering to sit down and listen to yours too.
i'm sorry i had to delay our little talk.
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it really sucked seeing you angry today.
i don't like it! ):
i don't like seeing u angry with me.
because i feel so helpless without you.
and it's like, how boon boon told me tt she and ee ghim say i'm strong.
but i told her, i have jiajia.
i mean, i got jiajia to share my problems.
and because she's very logical and all,
she gives me like straight to the point advice
and she tells me exactly how she feels towards what happens.
and it helps me alot.
because it opens up my perspective on things.
and i know if i talked to other people.
no one else would be able to tell me what jiajia can.
and it's also like the ability to be frank with each other.
she tells me straight to the face what she thinks.
and yes, jiajia, you really help me.
and you remember everything.
and you keep me on track.
and of course we have God.
someone we can ultimately depend on.
jiajia. i really hope i can be there for you.
i know we can't go out and stuff at the moment.
but anyhow,
i will say tt i really really miss talking to you.
just crapping and laughing and walking and talking.
i know you're going through a lot now.
and i can't help much.
cheer up jiajia.
i don't wanna see u down. ):
i really really cherish you!
pok pok jia.
love jude.

delphine.
i'm sorry for not being able to talk to you.
sorry for forcing you to take cab with me.
sorry for being so impatient with you today.
i really had a tough day, mentally and emotionally drained.
i hope you forgive me for what i said the other time.
i hope you understand.
):
sorry for the lack of time spent with you.
jude.

boonsie.
boon.
i can only say.
you really should stop asking and hoping.
i wanna tell you a whole lot,
that you really gotta move on.
i cannot stress it any further.
but there's no point wanting to know what i know.
there's no point searching for something that's not there.
take what's placed before you.
swallow it.
and move on.
stop deceiving yourself.
i know it sounds harsh.
but really.
there's more to life then just dwelling on it.
really.
i'll try my best to be there.
take care.
i will keep praying for you.
jude.

alex.
glad to hear that you're fine.
i don't know if that's what you really decide to do.
but ya.
if it is then i'll support you.
don't want u to get hurt though.
but yah.
there's so much i can do and say.
i really didn't like what happened.
anyhow.
take care and all the best.
jude

chuarie.
haha. drop econs! (:
haha. it's funny.
anyhow. i'll see you in school tmw.
and we'll discuss our plans k
jude

chris.
didn't get to talk to you much today.
i hope you're doing fine.
is that your final decision?
i think it's good that you thought through and asked for advice from them.
yeah.
wanna know more.
are you still staying with the team?
let's go run together one day ok?
jude

fernzie.
i don't know if you read this.
but i can sense to distance between all of us.
sorry i haven't been able to talk to you much either.
hope you're fine.
jude

esther.
you're back.
haha. it's been a while i know.
but yah.
still glad you're back.
haven't had the chance to talk.
sunday afternoon ok?
jude

jo.
hey. thanks for having tea with me the other day.
really miss talking to you and spending time with you.
jude

[ Jude whispered ][ 8:26 PM ]

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